Thursday, 8 October 2009 {}
Somebody help me.. I can't seem to get enough sleep. Burning midnight oil with the outcome of nothing much.
You don't understand me at all.. Though you can easily feel it when I'm moodless and so, you assume things, things that cut me deep inside..
I'm losing hope, the more I think, the more pressure I get.
Tears just drop down uncontrollably when I worsen your situation, I don't want to see you like that.
Am I just adding on to your burden? I guess I am, I haven't seen you smile for a while, you're the one that have changed my dear.. not me..
Change in a way that you no longer smile that often, always looking so deep in thoughts. Wouldn't it be hard to laugh and joke when you see someone you love so depressed.
Baby, I can't help you in any way, I'm a lousy girlfriend.
I don't want to add on to your burden, I'm finding ways to help you, but the ways I thought could help you just dosen't suit you at all.
What am I to do.. Fuck everything, examinations and curfews all coming at the same time. How to rest? I feel so tired, yet I don't know what to start with.
Baby, dont burst, I'll be behind you.
but i'm afraid, would if i am the one that burst first?
Sometimes things I don;t tel you have a reason to it, sometimes when I act diffferently it dont mean I've fallen for others.
Your words pierced me hard.. numb.. numb,, numb.. i'm numb.. Haha, LIFE'S LIKE THIS
When you treat people good, they don't see it at all. I've cared for all of you, but nobody is helping me now, I don't know who to pour my sorrows to.
I dont own a respect that I'm supposed to have. Sometimes you all make me feel that i'm not welcomed in this family. I'm your sister, do you know the consequences if you dont help me? You want to see me go in and sit? You dont respect me at all, threatening me with all this.
I don't seem to be appreciated when I do stuffs, then why do them?!
School, I'm there only for one reason, to pass my examinations. But I doubt I can, I've lost all confidence. I feel so left out sometimes. I hate you! Are you my childhood friend or just someone stabbing me at my back? I hate your comments, yet I can't say anything, cause I know I'll never beat you in speaking. bleahhhhhhhhhhhh, LIFE,,,,,,,,,
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